I have tried to write a blog post for a little over a week now and gotten nowhere... Usually there is either enough half written material already in my notes or I have something on my mind that I desperately need to express, and the post almost writes itself. And it's not like I've been doing absolutely nothing and I'm not feeling depressed or anything, but I have had this listless boredom that doesn't go away and leads to intense un-motivation and it has been bugging me for about a week now!!! I hate being bored because I have no good reason to be!! and also because I like the feeling of doing something like writing and when I'm not doing or creating something I just eat too much and scroll Substack and read mediocre articles for too long. Maybe if I increase the amount of coffee I drink by like 25-35% I might start feeling fun and inspired and normal again?? But also recently, coffee hasn't been tasting as delicious no matter where I get it or in what form, which is very concerning!!!
I have also been really dissatisfied with overall my appearance lately (especially my hair.) I think that my hair texture (which is unchangeable) being fine means that my hair will always tend to be flat, tangly and vaguely horsegirl-esque if I do not style/tend to it in some way. Similarly, I am not tall or lanky enough to pull off any sort of "unfinished" "messy-chic" kind of fashion, a la Serena Van der Woodsen and the like. And neither of those facts are actually bad nor am I that upset, it's more so annoying that I look best in somewhat structured and tailored fashion and can never pull off the just-left-yoga-class chic that Sophie can pull off!!!!
Just went to my notes to see if there was anything hiding there I could use in this post and this is all I have- I vaguely remember starting this as a joke months ago but I must have edited it last week in a fugue state.